Your question absolutely breaks my heart friend. I know your life is painful now and you are experiencing deep hurts, but I also know suicide is not painless. There will not only be pain for you but also for everyone you leave behind. read more
Contact a suicide hotline if you need someone to talk to. If you have a friend in need of help, please encourage that person to contact a suicide hotline as well. - Worldwide In general, if you're outside the US, numbers for your country are here: Help a friend - Befrienders Worldwide. read more